A bad day does not equal a bad life

It’s 5 o’clock and I just brushed my teeth and showered……that should give you an indication about how today is going. I woke up this morning…. ACTUALLY..I went to bed knowing that today would be a difficult day. G was fighting sleep all night and today has been no different. She will sleep as long as I am close by or holding her but let me step away….she is screaming at the top of her lungs. I went to bed last night thinking about how badly I wish I did not have to go through this alone and that thought has not left my mind since. I am trying to get my life back in order aka going to the gym and trying to finish school. Those two-simple tasks seem nearly impossible these days…It’s frustrating…extremely frustrating. I feel like I am sitting around waiting for life to go back to “normal” but this is my new norm and it’s a lot different than I expected it to be.

 

I keep having to tell myself however, a bad day does not equal a bad life. Today is just a bad day but I do not have a bad life. As much as I wish I had someone to partake in the late-night feedings, I can’t help but think how much stronger of a person I am becoming. I am learning patience, something I did not have much of before G. I was so frustrated last night and throughout the day when she refused to let me put her down but I had to remind myself to appreciate this moment because here soon she is going to be a big girl who wants nothing to do with her Mommy. Time management is also something that I am having to learn. Sure, I have always been a planner but being on baby time is a whole new ball game. I appreciate my days and all the task that I can complete, even if it isn’t all of them. As much as I want to sit in a corner and cry about how much life sucks, I must remind myself how much it does not.

Being a mom, college student, employee, or simply a human being is hard af. We have all these desires and wishes that we feel frustrated when we don’t have them or if they seem too far out of reach. We come with all these emotions that we don’t necessarily know how to deal with all the time. On top of it all, we have responsibilities and obligations. While my situation may not be yours, I understand that we all have our bad days. I guess the point I want to make is don’t let a bad day get you down. Know that you are in control. We choose how our days go because we choose how we react to our situations. Sitting and dwelling on all the wrong that is happening is not going to make your day any better. So again, a bad day does not equal a bad life. Whatever you are going through, know that you will get through it. You honestly don’t have a choice but you do have a say in how you feel going through it. I am sending positive vibes and much love…

P.S. I have received a lot of messages from people seeking advice or just simply needing to talk. I appreciate people trusting in me enough to help them through a rough time. I apologize if I take a while to get back to some of you. Life with an infant keeps me quite busy and things tend to slip my mind. Messaging me on social media sites is a good way to reach me but if you want to ensure you get a response, email me at kmactheg@gmail.com.

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